Its Amazing How Things Can Turn Around!!!!!

Why is it that things started out so crappy when TJ and I first split up because he kicked me out of the house with nothing and here I am a little over five months later and things are getting better slowly. I have decided to go back to school and do something for myself instead of pleasing everyone else. That is what I had to do when I was married was please everyone else and now I have started to please myself and that is what I am going to continue to do. I have never thought of life this way but things have turned around and they are better than they were ever before.

I have started to go to church at the Church of Christ here in Safford. I actually got baptized last Sunday by a guy that actually invited me to start going to the chuch so I figured that it was only approperiate to let him have he honors to baptize me. I know that some people dont believe it but it has actually changed my outlook on life and it seems like things are getting better and they ar easier to deal with.

Going to church was something that TJ never wanted me to do because he was always afraid that I was going to push him into going to church and I never did but I have always been a fairly religious person and its so nice to be able to be back in the bible now and be able to go to church and go ot the activities that I chose to and I am not looked down upon for that and I have really enjoyed that because I dont have to please anyone but myself. Thanks to the lord above for answering my prayers and being as good as he has to me. In the short time that I have been going to church because I feel like no matter how bad life is if you go to church and you pray about it things will get better.

Feeling another year older.

I have had many ask me if I feel another year older. To answer this question I really dont feel any different than I did last year other than the fact that I am not married anymore which is for the best. Other than that no I really dont feel another year older because it seems the same to me. I am sure that when I hit thirty it might hit me, as for right now it does not seem the same if you know what I mean.
I am loving the weather this year down here just as I did last year. It has cooled off somewhat but its not freezing cold. It was kind of funny the other day we got new uniforms at work and the boss asked me if I wanted any long shirts and I kind of give him a puzzled look and said no not really because I am sure that I will be fine. Today though I realized since we are so close to the mountain that it might be kind of cold so I did ask for some long sleeve shirts even though I dont know if I will wear them or not but thats OK. It was just kind of funny to be asked if I wanted long sleeves because it has been so hot here and now that its cooling off it seems so different.

Today Is October 1st My Birthday

Today is My birthday and my question to myself yesterday was I going to make myself miserable since TJ and I split up and I thought to myself why should I make myself because he obviously does not care about me after all he is the one that kicked me out and everything that is going on. So I woke up this morning and was in a good mood and thought you know what I am going to be happy no matter what I dont have to be depressed because their is no one to drag me down anymore and I can be the person that I want to be.

So, today I am going to lunch with two friends that I work with at the Mine and then I am going to go to dinner with another friend that he and I have become really close over the last couple of weeks and its kind of nice to have someone to talk to besides family that understands the way that I feel and will just let me cry if I need to cry but he always knows how to make me laugh when I need a good laugh and he is always there when I need a hug. In fact he called me at five this morning when he was on his way to work to tell me Happy Birthday and then I talked to my mom and she told me Happy Birthday and then the girls from work called me and invited me to go to lunch so it should be a fun day.

Life Update

I hope this finds everyone well with a busy life and working a lot I dont have time to do much of anything besides work and sleep but I thought that I would let everyone know that I am doing better and that things are slowly getting better day by day. I have some exciting news or at least I think that its exciting. I got contacts kast Thursday and I am really enjoying them. Yes as many of you know I have wore them on and off but now they have became more advanced and they are a lot easier for me to wear now.

Some other news the weather here in Arizona is still hot but its changing slowly but surely and getting somewhat cooler than it does in the middle of the summer and believe me I am looking forward to the cooler weather because I work outside it the heat at the copper mine here in Safford. I am also looking forward to the trip that I am planning to come home for Christmas to see everyone.

The happenings in the last couple of days.

I am doing better and getting used to being alone. Its kind of nice to be able to do what I want when I want and if I want to sleep in and do absolutely nothing for once I can do that and not get yelled at for it or be called lazy or whatever he used to call me.

As for my job I am still working quite a bit and that keeps me busy because then I dont have time to think of TJ and the negative things that he used to do to me. I miss my family and all but I have decided that I need to branch out on my own and decide what I really want to do with my life and I really like Arizona and the fact that I never have to deal with snow. Thedre is a place to stay for anyone that wants to come.

Today is a new day and lets hope that things start to get better. I have decided that things are for the better that TJ and I are apart because all he did was drag me down and make me miserable even though through the first part of our relationship we had a great marriage. I work two jobs now because I am so bored because I have nothing to do with my spare time anymore so that is why I chose to get another job.

I am happier now because I have had to make myself happy and realize their is life outside of being miserable and not being able to do the things that I want to do and when I want to do them. As for everything else I am planning a trip home at Christmas time and I know that I am going to freeze because I am used to the warm weather down here but it will also be nice to see all the family and to just relax and do nothing for a few days.